Jesus said to those Jews who believed in him, “If you remain in my word, you will truly be my disciples, and you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free.” - Jn 8:31-42
Letting go of certainty is one of my greatest challenges. Often times, it stirs fear, anxiety, and vulnerability. The deeper our faith, the more doubt we must endure. It is one of the paradoxes we hold as human beings. Today’s gospel reminds me that God asks us to be free by knowing, understanding, and applying His words in our everyday lives. As some would say, ‘to walk the walk,’ breaking away from attachments hindering us from His love and the conditions of inner peace. When we invite God to live within us, it creates a deep sense of freedom and acceptance to let life flow.
We all have a story and have gone through events that have changed us. In life, this kind of change is inevitable. We may not have control over what happens to us, but we do have the choice in how we internalize them. With help from God, Lent has been a time for me to not be so addicted to what is familiar and comfortable. Instead, taking a chance and risk to be completely honest with myself and no longer turning a blind eye.
For a whole year, I have been waiting for the complete physical healing of my dominant hand. Plans I once dreamt about slowly disintegrated as I noticed my hand not performing the way it did before the injury. My everyday mobility enabled me to live in gratitude and appreciate the simple things in life. Through time and prayer, I came to realize that inner healing was what I needed most, not physical. It is the freedom from not being enslaved to my own expectations, but what God truly desires for me. Most importantly, accepting the truth of how God loves me with my limitations, light and shadows included. And when we have God in the depth of our hearts, we respond with love and open ourselves to freedom, presence, and acceptance.
Lord, write your words of love and truth upon my heart so that I may be set free.
Reflected by Tam Lontok