Even now, says the LORD, return to me with your whole heart, for I am gracious and merciful. JL 2:12-13
But if it is by the finger of God that I drive out demons, then the Kingdom of God has come upon you. LK 11:20
I have had my share of demons growing up. I was full of insecurities, voices that said I was not enough, and sometimes despair. At one point, I was devoid of faith and renounced Jesus. Through it all, Jesus’ love remained.
The doubts I had in myself drove a wedge between Jesus and I. Like the crowd who witnessed Jesus’ miracle in today’s gospel, I always wanted more proof from heaven. I did not believe in miracles, even when I started walking after an accident that should have left me paralyzed. Miracles, I argued, needed to be tangible. My survival was just pure luck.
Through the years of rekindling a friendship with Jesus and my faith sharing group, I learned what I accredited to pure luck were miracles. The demons that used to haunt my dreams and waking hours slowly began to fade away. My friendship with Jesus is my foundation and my faith is built upon it. There are times where I would falter and allow these demons to occupy my thoughts, but they would no longer have a hold over me. It is trust in Jesus to always have my back, accepting me as I am, and being merciful which provides the strength ability to push the demons away. As the Lenten season continues, I pray to be more gracious, loving, and merciful in my everyday life as Jesus.
Lord Jesus, my dearest friend, please continue to open my eyes and heart to your everyday miracles. Help me to grow in faith with each passing day and hear your voice when you call out to me.